Last day of June and my first 12 days of work have been GOLDEN!!!! I will be 7+17 on 7/17 so countdown to my birthday begins. As I ponder on what I want to do I started to get frustrated with myself knowing that I can't or won't be able to spend my birthday with the people I love. The last 3 summers I have been on internships so my 21st birthday was celebrated in Richmond, VA/NYC, 22nd in Philly, 23rd in New Jersey/Richmond,VA, and now 24th maybe in Texas/La??? All of which were celebrated with friends and family. Remember I just moved to Texas a month and a day ago and I really don't have any close friends here where I live. I really don't feel comfortable going out with my co-workers as they don't know me and I don't know them well. I guess I just wanted to vent how frustrated I am knowing that I will probably spend my birthday by myself. Kinda sad but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and I know my 25th will be that much more special. So, today I had been going back and forth in my head should I let my co-workers know that my birthday is coming up? What would they do for me I just got there? Should I send an invite out to lunch on that day? I really don't know what I want to do. Lord knows if I was a realistic driving distance away from home I would jump in the car and drive home. SIGH!!!!!!!
God is truly testing my faith and I am letting him take the wheel as I begin this independent journey in a atmosphere and culture that is not me. I can only begin to wonder and remember my purpose for being here in Texas and what God called me to do. Praying for guidance!!!
Love this Yolanda Adams song I had to take it back because God has kept me through the midst of it all.
I've come through many hard trials
Through temptations on every hand
Though Satan's tried to stop me
And to place my feet on sinking sand
Through the pain and all of my sorrows
Through tears and all of my fears
The Lord was there to keep me
For He's kept me in the midst of it all
Not because I've been so faithful
Not Because I've always obeyed
It's not because I trust him
To be with me all of the way
But it's because He loves me so dearly
He was there to answer my call
There always to protect me
For He's kept me in the midst of it all
[Choir:]
I've come through many hard trials
Through temptations on every hand
Though Satan's tried to stop me
And to place my feet on sinking sand
Because Jesus loves me dearly
He was there to answer my call
There always to protect me
For He's kept me in the midst of it all
[Chorus:]
No He's never left me
And He' never let me fall
Oh yes He will protect you
For He's kept me in the midst of it all
[Vamp:]
Yes, He kept me
Yes, Jesus kept me
Jesus kept me [3x], in the midst of it all
For He's kept me in the midst of it all
Keep the Faith!
Until next time,
~E
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