Time to return to work

As I prepare my heart and mind for returning to work next week I can't but wonder how life would be with a 8 week old infant. This is what was in my inbox this morning a subtle reminder that I don't have a baby here and that I need to unsubscribe from baby center.


Will I be strong enough? Can I handle the pressure and stress of work? Will people treat me differently? How will I feel? Will I be able to get off of blood pressure medication? These are some of the thoughts that go through my mind when I think about getting up early next Monday morning to face a 12-14 hour shift. These last 10-11 weeks out of work have been hard. There isn't a more simple word to describe how I feel. I spent the first 2 weeks waiting on baby and these last 8 wishing I was still pregnant and baby was here. I've loathed in self pity, blamed myself for everything that I did and did not do right, and cried everyday. My husband has been my rock and support and has encouraged me, motivated me, and kept me grounded from going into a depression throughout this entire time. I could not be more thankful for a praying husband. I'm looking forward to what God has in store for me and my career. I know that his angels will surround me and keep me as I return back to work next week.

Keep the Faith!

~E