This is a new series I'm starting on my blog called Trying Again Tuesday where I will document my journey of experiencing neo-natal loss and a 2nd trimester miscarriage, and our journey to try again for another child.
Sunday, September 29 will make 10 months since our baby boy BJ has been gone from earth and living in heaven. Every month on the 29th since BJ died I think of what milestones he would have accomplished and how much joy he would be bringing to our lives. This month would be his 10th month of life and I can only imagine him beginning to take his first steps and walking and his personality beginning to shine. I also know if he was still here we would be planning his first birthday party and getting ready to send out invitations. Everyday I struggle with not being a mom to my sweet angels in heaven and there is no better way to honor them than to celebrate their birth and the day they went home to glory.
How do you go about planning a 1st year Birthday in heaven celebration? You honor your child's memory in whatever way you desire. I plan to celebrate BJs first birthday in heaven on November 29, by having a special memorial for my husband and I at his gravesite, release some balloons to heaven with written messages on it from us, and blow out a 1st Birthday candle as I would've done if he was still here. These are just a few items I know we will do. It's taken me 10 months to find my purpose and I don't want people to forget BJ and his life's purpose.
Although I have faith that one day God will provide me my "rainbow" and "forever" baby there is no better feeling knowing that you can celebrate and honor the life of your child in heaven and be considered a mom even for a day.
Keep the Faith!
~E
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