Labor Day Blues!

Labor day has come and gone, and to some this was the end of the summer, but for me it was the end of a year of emotional stress, disorder, confusion, mixed signals, leading on, heartbreak, and conformation that what God has for me is for me. Yesterday, I received a text message from my friend that I have been blogging about the past year and he said
"I wanted to apologize to you for the way I treated you last year. I feel like I strung you along and I know what it feels like and it wasn't right"
So, my response being the bigger person I am now and having learned alot from that experience. "I accept your apology and learned from that experience and hope you did as well. I know that God will send you your queen one day just be ready to receive her"
His response was "Thank you and I know that God will bless you"
So, to end this year of ups and downs, emotional highs and lows, from love to confustion, exclusivness to just friends, making love to just being friends with benefits. I'M OKAY!!! I am okay with this situation and I honestly accept his apology. Even though it took him a year to apologize to me that he strung me along I am happy he apologized, now we can both move on from this situation. I said in an earlier post that I thought things would be different if I was there in Richmond or he was here in Texas, but what I have come to realize was that it wasn't meant to be. Its always those men who we think are the "one" because they have it together, are compatibile on an emotional, physical, spiritual level, same goals and morals, college educated, wants something out of life, all around nice guys that aren't secure with themselves to be with someone else or you just wasn't "the one" or in their plan. What ever happened to being honest with someone in the beginning of a courtship? If you are not ready to be in a relationship please let me know from the beginning. Why waste people's time or block them from meeting their blessing in a mate? I am okay with letting go the pain and hurt that he caused me over the last year because truthfully I thought something was wrong with me. Knowing deep down I had my ish together and he was the one who wasn't secure with himself to be with someone else. I am okay with being single! I am okay with waiting for what God has for me!
This song by Chrisette Michele (as you know I love her) I'm Okay pretty much sums up how I feel about this relationship.


[Verse 1]

Time don't stop and wait for pain

Pain does fade away in time

Guess it all was just a game

When you gave your heart and I gave mine

[CHORUS]

I'm okay (I'm okay)

I'm just fine

We fade away, hardly crossed my mind
I'm okay (I'm okay)

My memories, they comfort me

Thoughts of what we used to be
[Verse 2]

Must admit you had me fooled

The love felt real, I can't deny

I really wish I did not know the truth

So I could go back to that lovely lie
[CHORUS]

[VAMP]

And it only hurts when I breath (only hurts, when I breath)

I can't feel it til I take a breath (take a breath)

And I'm holding on to these false memories

Cause that's all, all that I've got left


[CHORUS (repeat til end)]

So, I ended the summer and a relationship that has finally been brought to closure by an apology. Apologies go along way maybe you should apologize to someone you have hurt or forgive someone who has hurt you.


Keep the Faith!
Until next time,

~E