Losing Brielle last year at 18 weeks along was not only hard, but I didn't understand what was wrong with my body. Why couldn't I have healthy children? Was there something physically wrong with me? What did I need to do differently so I could get different results the next time we got pregnant?
When we found out we were pregnant in January I knew once I was past the 18 week mark I could enjoy this pregnancy. I walked on egg shells the first 18 weeks. I didn't tell my co workers I was expecting, my rational was I didn't want to have to come back and tell them bad news. My blood pressure skyrockets every doctors visit. I remained hopeful and still do remain faithful I would make it full term.
Thankfully with the help of a cerclage or cervical stitch I was able to make it past this milestone of this pregnancy. Overcoming milestones in pregnancy after loss is something you have to simply stay in constant prayer about. Everyday I ask God to let me keep this baby and for this baby to grow strong and healthy. Every doubt and fear I had leading up to 18 weeks has sense gone away.
My new milestones are 24 weeks, 28 weeks, 32 weeks, and 37 weeks. Another day my baby boy has in my womb brings me closer to bringing him home.
Keep the Faith!
Until next time,
~E
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