I remember writing a list in 2007 of the qualities I wanted in a mate on my other blog. Wrote it, signed, sealed, and delivered it with a prayer. The list consisted of 50 different character traits that NO MAN will ever have or possess, but God of course. :0) I guess I was "writing a vision and making it plain", but its not that I was being unrealistic. I was writing down what I knew God would provide for me if I could do without certain things.
When it comes down to it I want a man of character, integrity, who doesn't want to break God's heart, loves family, makes sound decisions, and is financially stable. Makes me love, laugh, think, scream (in a sexual way of course LOL), and happy. Of course chemistry, compatibility, and love play an important role in this business partnership called marriage, but no man will ever have it all besides God. All in all I want a partner who has a personal relationship with God, willing to remain celibate until marriage, and values marriage. I want my king to read Proverbs 31 and be like that embodies me. I believe everyone has to grow into a whole single person before becoming married. After all two broken single people doesn't make a whole marriage. This is my time to become a whole single individual to do what God has called me to do and prepare me for my future spouse.
God gives his best to those who leave the choice to him. So, I am leaving the choice up to him, but in the process I need to prepare myself. I need to let go of past hurts with forgiveness. I need to reconcile with people who have done wrong by me. I need to forgive myself for the sins I have committed and repent to God. I need to ask the holy spirit to keep my mind and thoughts pure. I need to be like Esther. I need to overcome my past, my present, and leave the future up to God. As Esther married a King, I know that God will send me my king when he chooses to do so in his due time.
This past weekend I was in Tulsa, OK for a Professional Development Conference for NSBE (National Society of Black Engineers). Its funny how the holy spirit speaks to you in certain situations, but remember the holy spirit is a person not just a spirit entity that doesn't have the same 5 senses. I believe that you attract certain people based on the place you are in life, if you have forgiven past hurts, reconciled areas of weakness, and focused on areas of growth. I was approached by several different men who I believe wouldn't normally speak to me. Maybe as Mary Mary says "Its the God in Me" that they saw when they got pass my physical features and opened my mouth to talk. What the holy spirit revealed to me in the process is that as I take down bricks from the wall surrounding my heart, he will begin to send godly men my way. He also revealed that Satan will send people along the way to try to steer me off track, but the holy spirit will reveal to me the truth.
Each week I will memorize a few bible verses, meditate on the scriptures that stand out to me and allow the holy spirit to shine his light in the dark areas of my life.
This week I am focusing on Isaiah 54:5 and Romans 8:26.
Isaiah 54:5 says "For your maker is your husband -the Lord almighty is his name-the holy one of Israel is your redeemer; he is called the God of all the earth"
Romans 8:28 says "And we know all things work together for the good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose."
This month of November we should give thanks for something everyday! What do you thank God for today?
I thank God for revealing to me my passion, purpose and calling in life :)
Keep the Faith!
Until next time,
~E
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