Faith Over Fear

        Which one will you choose?

“It took a long, long road to get here; it took a brave, brave girl to try” Alicia Keys “Brand New Me.”

I feel just like Alicia it indeed was a long road and took a brave girl to try again.

I decided that my blog family should be the first to hear the news.

I’m pregnant! We are overjoyed, excited, scared, nervous, anxious, but overall very blessed to be able to experience another pregnancy. We are due October 9, 2014 with a scheduled caesarean section planned for 37-38 weeks around September 18 or 25. Of course I waited until we were out of the first trimester to share the news here, and I will share why in another blog post. I am on a hiatus from Social Media for Lent so at the minimum I won’t share the news on those outlets until after Lent is complete on April 20. I’m enjoying the miracle God has tasked me with carrying into this world.


My husband and mom are not cutting their hair until the baby is here. Yes, Brandon will be growing a fro until September. I am eating healthier, drinking more water, getting more exercise, and trying my best not to stress over every ache and moan of being pregnant. Being pregnant after losing children is the most stressful thing I’ve ever been through. I stay in constant prayer asking God to “Keep my heart and mind at Peace” and to “Please let me keep this baby.” God continuously covers me and has given me peace throughout this journey thus far.


I shared in my post Dreaming of my Rainbow Baby that this journey is going to take Faith over Fear. I know my faith has to conquer my fears of losing another child. I plan to document and post weekly updates of this pregnancy and how it feels to be pregnant after losing children.

"Faith and fear have the same elements. They both require you to believe something that hasn't happened yet."


Please continue to follow my journey to having my Rainbow Baby and if you don’t do anything else please keep my husband and me in your prayers.


Below are my 4-12 Weeks Pregnancy Update.


4 weeks – Positive at home pregnancy test. See picture below.

7 weeks – Had my first OB appointment where they confirmed my pregnancy. We discussed all the possible options and how much I would see him throughout the pregnancy.

8 weeks – Had my first ultra sound. See picture below.  Found hemorrhage in uterus due to implantation that caused some cramping. This was very nerve wrecking for me as I thought I would miscarry due to the hemorrhage.